Patience

Being patient is not easy. Especially when it seems you have already waited a lifetime or the situation that you are currently experiencing seems unbearable. I have learned by reading, praying and talking to others that  although it seems like this "hole" that I am in continues to get deeper, I am gaining insight to help me in other obstacles that I may encounter down the road.

I have learned to pray and garner any help and guidance I can from all sources. By chance I came across a little book called "God's Wisdom for you Every Need." This has been a great help to me in those times when I really need a quick education in not giving up or how to respond in a particular situation.

I have also learned a great deal about myself in the ongoing process. Although I have been patient, at times, I may not have been patient enough.  I need to wait that additional second, minute, hour, day, etc. longer that I may want to.

My first prayer in my knowledge quest was this: Lord, being patient isn't easy. I have my agenda for when things should happen -- and I'm frustrated and resentful when they don't. Patience will come to me, though, when I'm truly surrendered to you -- so here I am, God. Do what You want in my life, in Your time, in Your way. Amen
(Light for my Path)

I know I have much more to learn and am eager to continue.

Life - An Education in Patience

Life gets complicated at the most unexpected and what seems like the worst times. I have been told that its not what life throws at you, but how you respond to what life throws you.

Recently I have had several setbacks in my professional career, which as expected, effects my private/personal life.  I hit me hard because everything in my life has generally "progressed as planned." Now everything in my life has not been perfect, but the little bumps in the road have been relatively easy to navigate.  This most recent curve life has thrown me hasn't been as easy to navigate.  Mainly because it is not just me that is effected.  I now have a family and so I feel responsible for the effect this is having on them.  Also others hold the key as to how things will progress and all I can do is await their decision.

I have to admit the past 9 months have not been easy for me.  I am used to being in control or I should say I thinking I was in control of my life. My current situation has shown me that no one is ever in control of their lives because you can never control what others do or how they respond to things you do. I believe that God is  teaching me patience.

What does this really mean? Webster's Dictionary defines as the ability to endure waiting, delay, or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset, or to persevere calmly when faced with difficulties. One bible dictionary defines it  as an active endurance of opposition, not a passive resignation. It is endurance, steadfastness, long-suffering, and forbearance.